Wednesday, March 12, 2008

iPhone Sex

I'm going to write something normal this time. No more abstractions. Only concrete. No, actually I don't like concrete, just so everyone knows. I like abstract. I think this is because I am detached from concrete. Concrete hurts and bleeds and dies. Abstract bends and survives despite giant holes. The everyday is a series of moments lived in direct contact with experience. What if experience takes place mostly in my head? Does that mean it is not experience? I don't know.

I like sitting in the dark with deep blue light as the only light. One time when I was nineteen I stood in the dark in my parents' garage at night and stared at a tiny green light on the garage door opener. There were some moments when I had lost my sense of proportion. I felt like the detached cogito Descartes led us to imagine in Intro to Philosophy. I stood still and felt like I was only my mind without a body. I still remember that experience and sometimes I want to feel that again.

I am in far better shape for intellectual1 acrobatics than emotional exercises.

Direct contact with things makes my eyes feel tight. I think I said that before one time.

Here are some things that intrigue me: People arrive at this blog often by searching for these terms:

girls with penises - at least a dozen searches for this anatomical situation lead here every week. I mentioned in a post before that girls have penises in Henry Darger's illustrations for his unfinished epic fantasy.

what does disseminating mean - this word disseminate and its variants apparently has an uncanny ability to stick to minds and then is almost always unhappy to remain alone in a mind without its meaning, like a suit that feels naked and anxious without a body inside it.

zizek - people are really interested in what Slavoj Žižek is saying or what is being said about him, and also Žižek in conjunction with Baudrillard. They are/were both intellectual rock stars, so that makes sense. Irony is a huge part of their interaction with the world ("the world" being society) and I enjoy that. Žižek has a portrait of Stalin in his entry way to scare people away. He does not like Stalin.

Also of interest is that there are a half dozen Slavoj Žižek's on Facebook and all of them look identical and have the same name, but they are dispersed throughout the earth. I think these Žižeks ought to get together and find their parents, because they are obviously sextuplets that have somehow been separated. The reunion could be a 20/20 special or a Dr. Phil episode. No, I want to see the Slavoj Žižeks embrace one another with sweat and tears beneath the hot stage lights of the Oprah show some afternoon just before my local news airs. Or the Žižek brothers could bombard Larry King or any of the cable news channels. I want every news channel expert to be Slavoj Žižek. I want every other word spoken by anyone to be Slavoj Žižek.

I have digressed. Below is a post that I wrote on January 2 and never did anything with until now, when I deleted it:










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1 This particular usage of the word intellectual is not intended in the snobby way that the word can often seem; rather, it is meant as another word for mental/thought/logical, simply being what I thought was a better word choice for sound and rhythm purposes, and quite possibly was a mistake. Thus the intentionally pretentious footnote to just do something snobby and get it over with in an honest, yet, still sort of ironic way. I've been pretty bored with this for quite a few sentences now. I can't believe I'm still going. I can't stop.

3 comments:

BLAKE BUTLER said...

i like reading your words re: philosophy. it makes me want to read more of it.

Josh Maday said...

thanks, blake. i know some people pucker up when philosophical things are said, even at the word philosophy, but i think it's one of the most interesting narratives in human literature. i'm glad my words about philosophy cause you to want to read more philosophy.

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